today started off to a good start but i never know what will happen in my life anymore.I dont trust nything or anyone. Will it be a good day or a bad will thge shadows kill me more? or will light help me? Alot of people think im hard to undertsnad well it is true i really am hard to understand. I started writeing poams and writeing songs and starting to play my electric guitar more.Days were starting to get better until i heard that my bf is going to die,i dont know how i will live any longer but i have to stay long im only on one last thread and if that thread snaps i will die.I went to a new schoolpeople look at me as if i dont belong they call me goth and lable me but i am not labled i am just me i am who i amno one can change that they can take my heart but no one cantake my soul. no one will ever understand me never i have changed majorly for the past 3 years and i dont know if i will ever get back to myself again.Melancholy winds blow as my life passes on each day im older each years oass im a year older i willdie and i will live so will every one why do people judge? there is no use of it...each day passes on so melancholy so lonly so hurt...

why are people so rude to me.. what have i dont? why do people hate me? why! i dotn know anything why people do...i was happy untill people had to be so rude.people dont understand me much its cause if people satrt makeing fun of me it hurt me and i get all mad and snap back but idk and idc any more.people dont see how sensitive i am they dont see my life they dont see the real me.

finaly i am happy for once i am normally depressed but oh well i fixed my electric guitar so now its all good.It have been a really rough year on what have happend but i have to carry on what has happend was rediculous to much to happen in one year.Me and my family just moved into our new home i am nervouse to go to a new school i have such a hard time to fit in,but i guese it will work ok..